Monday, August 27, 2007

time for anotherrrrr.... tag!!!!!!

Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird habits or little known things about yourself.

People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird or little known facts about yourself as well as state this rules clearly.

At the end, you must choose 6 people to tag and list their names.

ok here it goes...

1. i laugh so hard until i cry

2. i have about 17 pairs of coloured hooped earrings

3. i have two birthmarks, one on each side of my ear, that looks like a piercing.

4. the name castalnetta originated from celine's dream about a girl in a blood stained white gown, whom reminded her of me. yum.

5. i like black roses

6. if i were to get inked, it'd be a black rose vine around my left ankle.

7. me and celine currently have the same piercings at the same places.

8. i used to call my mum everyday before i left for school to remidn her to pick me up after work

9. i'm a procrastinating perfectionist, and a little ocd at times.

10. i love my ten bffs to death!

Sunday, August 26, 2007


anticipation is the most annoying, unneverving, distracting etc etc emotion around. honestly. all you can do is sit and wait for that something to come along. granted that its taking its OWN SWEET TIME simply because it knows you're waiting for it.. and BAMM when ur not looking, it hits you in the face.

THATS anticipation for you, ladies and gentlemen. And let me tell you,

it sucks donkey balls.

I feel sad, and a little sick right now.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

a little bit about meme...

1. My ex is : currently in Singapore studying Engineering

2. I am listening to: The Flower Duet by Operababes

3. Maybe I should : get onto doing my Phil essay which is due Monday

4. I love : getting a hairwash at the hairdressers

5. My best friend : knows me only too well.

6. I don't understand : myself from time to time.

7. I lose : interest in lectures all too quickly

8. People say : I am that weird gothwannabechick

9. The meaning of my screen name is : my name

10. Love is :l strawberry cheese cake

11. I will always : question why I am such a cheap drunk

12. Forever : are what diamonds are.

13. I never want to : lose anyone I love (ditto)

14. My cellphone is : white and orange in colour

15. When I wake up in the morning : I go.. what the hell.. I barely slept!

16. I get annoyed at : people who annoy me?

17. Parties are : overrated

18. My dog is : nonexistent

19. Kisses are worst when : its not with the person you love.

20. Today I am : being a good girl and doing my essay.. procrastination i tell you

21. Tonight I will : finish off my readings... which is not going to happen

22. Tomorrow I will : finish my essay..hopefully..

23. I really want : to go shopping and have someone else pay for the stuff

24. When I looked at myself in the mirror today I : sighed.

25. I will drive my car : with my fingers tapping away on the steering wheel.

26. A word that rhymes with park is : fark?

27. Bright or dark room? : dark.. the light.. it kills

28. If I'm alone in a room with two beds I : will push them together and jump up and down on them

29. Now to tag people
I tag... YenShengPan, MojoJojo, and my dear one and only VincentJamesBaker.

Stages of Success

at age 4 ...success is ... not peeing in your pants
at age 12...success is ... having friends
at age 16...success is ... having a drivers license
at age 20...success is ... having sex
at age 35...success is ... having money
at age 50...success is ... having money
at age 60...success is ... having sex
at age 70...success is ... having a drivers license
at age 75...success is ... having friends
at age 80...success is ... not peeing in your pants

Friday, August 24, 2007

give me a reason to smile


Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Have You Ever?

Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry?

Ever felt like you were so lost and lonely that all you wanted to do was scream and cry? And for the whole world to hear you? For someone to just go "it's alright honey, everything's gonna be okay." even when it's not.

But at the same time to just cry all alone in your room and for the entire world to leave you alone to mope in your misery?

Have you ever?

The two are very contrasting I know, and for some it may be difficult to comprehend how a person could feel two emotions which are at opposite ends of one another.

Its odd, but I never said I am a simple girl.

Monday, August 13, 2007


I Wish you didnt love me
I wish youd make this easy
It was love that caught me
Now it's fear that keeps me with you
I want to be by your side
So I can close my eyes
To the growing emptiness inside that kills ms
When I'm with you
You try to break me Try to hate me
So you can fall out of love
You want to make me believe that I'm crazy
That I'm nothing with out you

It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own

I feel you in my shadow
My heart feels cold and hollow
No matter where I run I see
Your eyes always follow me
You try to hold me
Try to own me
Keeping something that's not yous
You want to make me
Believe that I'm crazy
Make me think that you're the cure

It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own

You're still haunting me
In my sleep
You're all I see
But I can't go back
Cause I know it's wrong
For us to go on
And I'm growing strong
To confront my fears

It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own


Sunday, August 12, 2007


I'm nocturnal, I will admit.. but I'm not too fond of having to pull all nighters (though it seems to be part and parcel of high school and uni life) simply because I have to operate during "normal homosapien hours" ie hours when the sun is up, which just really sucks in my opinion.

Most of the all nighters I do pull tend do have some inkling with academic work like law tutorial, stats assignments and the like. Yesterday, was a different scenario. We decided to have an impromptu sleepover at Allan's which involved absolutely no sleeping at all as far as I'm concerned.

The following was my schedule for Saturday.. and as I still have had no sleep, today is still Saturday for me.

11am - wake up for filming for the "Malaysian Night" short film.
12pm - bus down to Riccarton for lunch and Harry Potter 5 ( finally! )
4pm - walk down to vin's place just to realise he left his keys at mine.. thus we bussed down to Allans
4ish pm - go through some Malaysian photos
6pm - drinking starts
7ish pm - singstar starts. drinking continues
12am - watch Eurotrip, Deuce Biggolo and Jackass 2
5am - stay up talking crap
7am - clear up Allan's place
9am - down to breakfast at Honey Pot
10am - get back for shower and rest

and after this, that being 12pm Sunday, I get to do more filming where I'm just an extra.. then go around chalking the uni as promo for Malaysian night as well as do Law notes and the rest of my assignments.

I love my life. I love my life. I love my life.

Friday, August 10, 2007

wouldn't it be nice?

Its like that Beach Boys song "Wouldn't It Be Nice" - the one they used in the Cadbury advertisement..

Wouldn't it be nice if everyone in this world could do exactly what they wanted. No questions asked. If I could, I would be working in an events management company, hopefully specialising in wedding planning. I wouldn't be studying my little arse off in Laws 101. Not that it probably isn't going to pay off if I worked hard enough or become a top notch lawyer. One can always dream. But yes, given the chance, I would like to be working as an events planner/manager. Not that I wouldn't complain about it either from time to time. It just that I know the complaining and whining will all cease when the time comes and I reap the satisfaction of having successfully planned and executed yet another almost seemingly flawless event. Like I said, one can dream.

However, snapping back to this real world we are living in (and trust me, it doesn't get anymore real than this), me having a career in events management is highly improbable in the near future. Hence me working my little arse off in Laws 101. And Celine most likely dabbling in Accounting for if she was to do what she really wanted to do- that being photography- the result would be.. yeah well, let's not even go there. But honestly, wouldn't it be nice?

And what would YOU (yes you the reader), do if you had the chance to choose exactly what you wanted to do without having to consider anything else?

Moving along I learnt about this thing called the "Nozick Pleasure Machine" today in Phil 139. Get your mind out of the gutter I say! This Nozick Pleasure Machine is meant to give you ultimate pleasure (not sexually.. not in the physical sense anyway.. purely emotional) in an unconscious state. From what I gather, its a machine they hook you up to, and all your deepest, darkest fantasies will come true - only in your mind of course. I, for one, voted to not be hooked up to the machine. For if you ever only taste pure pleasure and happiness, wouldn't it just be normal and a everyday thing? I mean, the only thing that makes pleasure and happiness what it is, is the fact that we go through pain and suffering. Its the pain, suffering, trials, tribulations and unhappiness of life that makes happiness and joy so much sweeter when we do attain it.
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