speakign of which, for some funny reason, i don't feel like i'm turning 20. heck i don't even feel anywhere near 18. i feel like i'm still 15. maybe it's because i'm so hopelessly dependent on my parents. true, living out this year has opened my eyes nice and wide to the world... but still! i don't feel 20. i mean, shouldn't it come with some form of maturity or just a little bit more wisdom? or maybe its just that i'm taking a little longer than usual or as compared to the rest to 'grow up' per se. maybe what i need is a big fat you're going to turn 20 slap in the face.
i've talked to my brother about this actually... and a few others. it seems like i'm the only one on this. everyone seems to feel vaguely 20ish. my brother said that he felt like he was always expected to act beyond his age and therefore felt like he was turning 20 ages before he actually physically turned 20.
i feel like a little kid :(