saturday morning!

i am admittedly up particularly bright and early today. 0840! it must be some kind of a record considering the fact that i have nothing going on this early in the morning. not rushing to school. not going out. nada. just a nice morning with my room and i. haha. you know some mornings, when you wake up and you feel like you can achieve anything and that the world is your oyster? well, this morning feels like that to me for some funny reason. guess i'll be staying in this somewhat chirpy mood for the rest of the day unless something drastic takes place later in the day that will bring my mood dipping to a low of .. oh i don't know...minus forty maybe?

finished our papers yesterday. ending with physics and est. physics was... i don't know what it was. wished i had a little more brain power. then maybe i could have remembered better or something. when i was doing the last page, the kindergarten over on the other side started blasting YMCA.. and she *the lady hosting it..whatever it was* was cheering...like she was having sex..ok..that sounded a lil wrong. but.. that exactly what she sounded like. and as if it wasn't enough that my head was swirling.. and was in one big mess. i couldn't concentrate enough. i couldn't think properly. heck. i barely knew what i was supposed to do! and it didn't quite help that when i turned to chalin, she was writing away vigorously on her paper and so did huah rong. that huah rong...they were both writing so much and tapping away at the calculator. it seemed to me that i was that i was the only one who was clueless and had no idea as to even WHERE to begin! grrr...

then after the whole physics and est saga, i headed home with lin hui to have a bath before mama chow came along to pick us up and drop us off at pp where we settled some stuff, bought evelyn's present and so on and so on and so on. had apple cheese and raspberry cheese for lunch as well as my esprit raspberry. yum yum. admittedly, it wasn't a lot that i ate but hey! i was really full. hehe. had loads of fun and laughter in bm tuition as usual. chemistry tuition on the other hand was a lil different. i was called up to the principal's office with 7 others where he gave us a long and undoubtly boring speech as to why we shouldn't talk bla bla bla and where he made us "promise" that we wouldn't do it again. so yeah. we "promised" him...only thing was, my fingers were crossed when i said it. so it shouldn't count. lol. :)

after which, we headed off to evelyn's place for her bday party. there were quite a bit of people there. the form 5s being myself, xinyu, jayne, tasha and melissa. the rest were eve's gang.. and some guys. had food. hung out.. talked....haha..thank god she did not go ahead with the whole water games thing, as i did not bring ANY extra clothes...the girls were making up vijay and had shameen's name written on his forehead. god was THAT a laugh!!! oh and i was introduced to a new friend, ruth. she hails from canada. both parents are malaysians. it was quite a joy talking to her. she started putting on make up on me. lol. as well as jayne. hehe. we exchanged emails and stuff. had a pretty good time last night and the food was good! :)

wow...just realised exactly how much i have written. maybe this would account for my 2 and a half pages long essay for est. OOPS! mrs koo is gonna murder me this time around. oh wells. so much for keeping it short, sweet and simple. lol.

+ cassie over and out +

last test in convent

as angel's godma so nicely pointed out just the other day during tuition, this is our last ever test in convent. yes, i admit that that thought had sneaked past me before but never in my life did i think it would be so soon. i think i am going to have to stop here before i begin to sound like the next drama-mama.

tomorrow's papers are going to be a killer. add math, history and biology. and of course there are some out there whose necks i would very much like to wring as they only have history and biology, due to the fact that they dropped add math. somehow, i do not think that add math is going to be any good this time around. oh wells. like what mum said. it's just a test!

three more days to the freedom. for the rest of the month. then i have the 80th anniversary dinner to look forward to. mum offered to pay for my ticket without me having to say anything! heheh.....

+ song of the day +

i looked away then i looked back at you. you tried to say the things that you can't undo. if i had my way, i'd never get over you. today's the day i pray that we make it through. make it through the fall. make it through it all. and i don't wanna fall to pieces. i just wanna sit and stare at you. i don't wanna talk about it. i don't want a conversation. i just wanna cry in front of you. i don't wanna talk about. cos i'm in love with you. you're the only one, i'd be with till the end. when i come undone, you bring me back again. back onto the stars. back into your arms. and i don't wanna fall to pieces. i just wanna sit and stare at you. i don't wanna talk about it. and i don't want a conversation. i just wanna cry in front of you. i don't wanna talk about it. cos i'm in love with you. wanna know who you are. wanna know where to start. i wanna know what this means. wanna know how you feel. wanna know what is real. i wanna know everything, everything. i don't wanna fall to pieces. i just wanna sit and stare at you. i don't wanna talk about it. and i don't want a conversation. i just wanna cry in front of you. i don't wanna talk about it. and i don't wanna fall to pieces. i just wanna sit and stare at you. i don't wanna talk about it. and i don't want a conversation. i just wanna cry in front of you. and i don't wanna talk about it. cos i'm in love with you. i'm in love with you. cos i'm in love with you. i'm in love with you...

+ avril lavigne - fall to pieces +

+ cassie going back to staring at bio +

woot

wow. didn't realise that it has been a week since i blogged. time passes THAT fast. great. just great. just what i needed. oh wells. am sorta dreading next week, for all the known reasons. to think that i am still reeling in pain after the last. oh god. what happened to my holidays? and the weeks after my holidays? sigh.

didn't go to sleep until 12+ last night. was talking to my jie, chris, online. it has been so long since i last chatted with her. updated her on the recent happenings in my life especially something that has been bugging me for over a week now. which reminds me. it is friday tomorrow! but never mind that. told me that she is going to move into her new place with clint next week, if i am not wrong. happy moving jie! hopefully i will get a chance to hang out in your new place some time soon as well as FINALLY getting to meet my brother-in-law for the first time. hehe.

oh and angel and i went out to cs yesterday. we had two missions at hand. one was to get ven's present. something pink, fluffy and furry! the guy at the counter must have had a really good laugh at us two girls, being unable to decide. we changed our minds over 100 times! hahah..ok...that was a little exaggerated. hahaha...if you are reading this now, ven, i hope that you like the present. roflmfao. and the other was to get fuck bands. yeah. you read my right. the both of us managed to find a stall which sold the fuck bands to us at RM4 for 10 pieces. we took 34 pieces, the nice guy only charged us for 30 pieces and gave the 4 pieces to us for free! go buy from him people! his stall is on the 2nd level of cs opposit baleno/s&k. then we took a cab over to my place. my mum seemed very happy to see celine. hehe. after that we headed off to tuition with compliments of a ride from uncle mok!

that's about it i guess. have got organ class after this. must finish off my summary THEN go on the organ a bit before my teacher comes. i think i haven't actually practised it properly in weeks! oh wells. contemplating stopping lessons already. am in a dilemma right now. as much as i love music, i simply have no time to practise the organ these days. there are a million and one things which are fighting for my constant attention! grr.

+ cassie over and out +

weekend!

don't know what to post today but i just felt like blogging...guess its been a while since i did. had a somewhat uneventful week. highlight of the week? minimum classes and the els farewell party...lol..where there was an encounter with "drag me! drag me!" and "THE box" we were clutching our tummies in laughter. safe to say, i was laughing till i cried! been keeping late nights recently, doing homework as i somehow miraculously fall asleep between 8-10. hehe. oh and yesterday's episode of charmed had drew in it...aww *melts*... sho kewt.. :D

can't wait for saturday to come...though tasha thinks that it should be friday i am waiting for. for some funny reason, i think friday can wait. lol. i am soo mean! am contemplating not going for tuition tomorrow... lazy!! oh...one more thing...tasha slapped me! :'( she slapped me during extra class for chemistry. and all mas liana could do was laugh. that's all she did! L A U G H! sho mean!! oh wells...really appreciate a great teacher like her. but SOMEONE had just sabo her like THAT...grr!

can't explain all the feelings that you are making me feel my heart's in overdrive and you are behind the steering wheel touching you touching me god you're touching me i believe in a thing called love just listen to the rhythm of the heart there's a chance we can make it now i believe in a thing called love!

+ the darkness +
+ i believe in a thing called love +

+ cassie over and out +

should i stay

a not so normal post for the second day in a row. hmm. i wonder why. as dennis would say... "you call THAT a post???" the one before was a "poem" or whatever...a lil sth i penned at the back of my head...but today, i am going to post a song. i find the song very...meaningful to say the least. it is one of those songs which i will NEVER get sick of in this lifetime of mine. THAT'S for sure. it's a pretty old one though. should i stay by dreamz fm. i think most of you will remember it from the show chemistry. enjoy =)

had a drive
driven by your love
but when you messed around
i lost the drive i found
thought you needed
needed someone true
but you changed your mind
or had i failed you
wish you'd been
careful with my heart
but you tore it apart
and broke an angel's heart
the kiss was true
had to end somehow
but i am livin proof
of what love is about

its hard
holding you
loving you
losing you
its sad to be true
and be fooled by you
i don't know
i gotta know
should i stay
or should i go

you played me on
played me like a clown
but i feel for you
even though i'm down
my heart is heavy
heavy like a rock
but i am so amused
you're still in my thoughts

its hard
holding you
loving you
losing you
its sad to be true
and be fooled by you
i don't know
i gotta know
should i stay
or should i go

its hard
holding you
loving you
losing you
its sad
to be true
and be fooled by you
i don't know
i wanna know
should i stay
or should i

this time it's done
we'll never feel the same
but we had some good times
guess its sad
just the same
i guess the truth
doesn't matter somehow
but you were livin proof
of what love is about

+ should i stay +
+ dreamz fm +

+ cassie over and out +

i wish

i wish i knew what was going through your mind
when i said i love you
so that all the curiousity
would not be eating me from the inside

i wish i knew what was going through your mind
when i said i love you
so at the very least
i would know what to do

i wish i knew what was going through your mind
when you said i do too
so that i would know
whether you meant it

i wish you knew what was going through my mind
when i said i love you
but a joke it was to be
how breaking my heart it was for me

i wish you knew what was going through my mind
when i said i love you
and you said you do too
but i see hordes of girls
hanging around you

i wish i knew what was going through your mind
when i said i hate you
and i meant it
through and through

i wish i knew what was going through your mind
when i said i hate you
and i watched your face
turn from grace

i wish i knew what was going through your mind
when i said i hate you
and you said fine
and i you

i wish you knew what was going through my mind
when i said i hate you
all the pain i was to bear
and already i looked worst for wear

i wish i knew
i really wish i do

+ cassie over and out +

saturday!

it's already saturday night and i have done absolutely nothing my whole weekend except whine about my fate...no wait...that isn't quite possible...what i did was moan and groan meekly...due to voice box's inability to vibrate properly or produce anything with its weak vibrations! no voice people! the gothic kitty cat is running out of meows!!! too much durian. too much work. too much shouting. not enough sleep. not enough water. and this is what you get. a voiceless fangi. great. just great.

well that was yesterday. today...well...i have gotten my voice back but it sounds stuffed...VERY stuffed...blocked nose....didn't eat much the whole of today except for the baked rice...not that i would taste anything to begin with. everything tastes the same....pathetic! saw the st johns doing duty today at hp and pp. flag day...brings back memories....loads of em...lol.....

+ cassie reminiscing +