Friday, January 26, 2007


as i was walking into the shower just over an hour ago, i had a sudden epiphany! yes.. the epiphany came with an exclamation mark.. a glowing one at that.. kinda like when people suddenly figure out something and they have the light bulb go off above their head.. only that mine came in the form of a glowing exclamation mark!

anyway.. need to stop digressing.. my sudden epiphany was that i don't wanna fail again. or disappoint for that matter. its a depressing feeling. to feel that you have failed. or that you have disappointed someone. so yeah. my epiphany. is that i dnt ever wanna fail. dnt think thts gonna happen though.. hmmm...

Thursday, January 25, 2007


ok so i failed my driving exam.

this does not mean i'm a lousy driver.

it simply means that i have to fork out another 120 and go for the test another time. thats all.


Sunday, January 21, 2007


Level 1
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) done weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol

Level 2
(x) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight

Level 3
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date

Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone/something die

Level 5
( ) had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTER friends
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up from drinking

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been mosh pitting

Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
(x) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel

Level 8
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

Level 10
( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
( ) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

Level 11
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer

Level 12
(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
( ) been in a car/motorcycle accident

Level 13
(x) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight

Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes

Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the world
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently coloured with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins

Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain

Level 18
( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach

Level 19
(x) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone roller skating/ blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey

Level 20
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a football game
( ) swimming with dolphins

Level 21
(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
( ) Sat on a roof top (wanna do this someday!)

Level 22
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night

Level 23
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree (i've done that with strawberries and cherries!)
( ) climbed a tree
( ) had/been in a tree house
(x) aren't scared to watch scary movies alone

Level 24
(x) believe in ghosts (believed. i still do at times)
( ) have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail

Friday, January 19, 2007

sorry i disappoint

i think mum and godma was somewhat disappointed with my results.

trust me-i am too. sigh.

that and i'm sick again. guess standing in front of the air conditioning on full blast for five minutes after a cold shower wasn't such a good idea.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007


so the wait is finally over.
the results have been posted in snail mail.
and put up on the nzqa website.

it was disappointing.

i failed two out of four external english papers but got merits for the other two. it was weird that the ones i failed were the ones i thought i'd get merits for.. or maybe 4As wouldn't even have looked half as bad as 2Merits and 2Not Achieveds.

got two Merits and two Achieveds in Stats which were rather disappointing as well.. considering the fact that Stats was the only subject i was confident of doing well in. guess n0t. was hoping for all Merits.. somethin i know i was perfectly capable of achieving. so WHAT THE HELL WENT WRONG IN THE PAPER?!?!?!?! i checked the whole goddamn thing like 3 times before leaving the hall..

econs was a disappointment. the only Merit i had was in market failure. i know i can do so much better than that!! my performance throughout the year has that to prove for it. and its only even more disappointing simply because i studied my ass off for the econs paper.

calc. HAH. that was a laugh. i only did like half of the questions. the rest were just beyond me. however, i passed everything and only failed conics. haha. hahaha. hahahahaha. calculus provided my much needed entertainment for the day. HAH!

current mood - ahhh!! fucking stats and econs!! ahhh!!! fucking ncea!!! ahhh.. fuck the world!!!!

mood to be in an hour - disappointed as hell in self and resolve to once again study my fucking ass off in uni. i need to prove to the world that i am something so much more than this ncea results.

mood to be by the end of the day after movies and binge eating - mehhhhh.

now-its time to get uni and my hostel sorted. ah fuck.

Monday, January 15, 2007


if you
if you could return
don't let it burn
don't let it fade
i'm sure im not being rude
but it's just your attitude
its tearing me apart
its ruining everything
i swore
i swore i would be true
and honey so did you
so why were you holding her hands
is that the way we stand?
were you lying all the time?
was it just a game to you?
but i'm in so deep
you know im such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger?
do you have to?
do you have to?
do you have to let it linger?
i thought the world of you
i thought nothing could go wrong
but i was wrong
i was wrong
if you
if you could get by
trying not to lie
things wouldnt be confused
and i wouldnt feel so used
but you always really knew
i just wanna be with you
and i'm in so deep
you know i'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to?
do you have to?
do you have to?
do you have to let it linger...

this song is dedicated to all my girls out there who are in that predicament. loving and holding onto someone they are probably better off without.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

big boobs small boobs

i am very sorry to say this (no actually i am not at all) but people from the neighbouring country has VERY EXTREMELY SMALL BREASTS! not to say that i have extremely huge ones..

today , i walked into this boutique "daniel yam" hoping to find a nice cocktail dress. the largest size they had was L. the dresses were a perfect fit with the exception that the chest are was wayyyyy too tight that i could barely breathe! honestly, i couldn't wait to get out of the dress just in case i rip a thread or something.. didnt wanna be forking out like 150++ for a dress i was never going to wear.

and here, sizes don't come in numbers. they come in xs, s, m, l, xl and then there is f. "f" you ask? free size. what the hell is free size?! there IS NO FREE SIZE!!! there is a reason why clothes come in sizes. not everyone fits into an xxs for crying out loud!!!

there. i've said my peace for today. lol.

sorry for the long hiatus anyway. i've been in penang and kl for the past week. where i blew over 300++ in the span of two days. i bought the corset dress from pdi. and the 170 roxy bag. if i go into tebrau city this week, i'm gonna pick up some stuff from body shop.. and the other roxy bag. and maybe the red dress. oh god. i need to stop spending and start keeping to my resolutions!!!!

Thursday, January 04, 2007

depressing day out

today, me, xin and lyn ventured out into tebrau city jaya jusco. damn that was a depressing shoppiung outing. i bought nothing other than two bottles of nail polish. the only other good thing that happened today was that we watched "night at the museum" which was a pretty awesome movie..

but yeah.. here are the list of things i saw today but couldn't afford as most of them came with a three digit price tag.

1) blazer/jacket from elle - rm249
2) red tube dress from wh - rm 129
3) black shoulder bag with charms from roxy - rm 169
4) black shoulder bag from roxy - rm 49
5) brown trench coat from naf naf - rm 449
6) black corset dress from p&co - rm 129

and the many many other pretty things i saw which i can't remember anymore. sadly.

maybe some kind soul would like to make my day? *hint hint*

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

resolution 07

okay so resolution time comes around once more.
i don't remember resolution 06 working out so well simply because i just blogged about it and like any other blog post, it just went straight into the archives only ever hoping to see the light again.
nonetheless, like what i say every single start of the year, im going to try to keep the resolution i make. so here we go :

[attempt to keep at the resolution list which has been made]
i mean.. thats the whole point of a resolution list, right? and come next year, i shall dig up this resolution which will probably go straight into archives and see what i have achieved in the year 2007.

[lose weight]
a good ten kilos or so will do. yeah, ten kilos. operasi lose weight must succeed!

[study my ass off]
i need to get into second year law. there is no two ways about it. as yoda said, do or die; there is no try. the only place where success comes before work is in the dictionary. i cannot afford to disappoint. not when 18grand is at stake! there goes more of my inheritance. sigh.

[get involved with activities around uni]
this year in high school has left me feeling somewhat lacking and empty. i attribute it to the fact that as compared to my many overly active years in convent, i dropped everything in high school this year. no eca. nada. zilch. nothing. and at the end of it all, i found it somewhat unfulfilling. therefore, next year, i am going to get myself involved.. but no overly involved.. there needs to be a balance, no?

[save up]
mum has already suggested a trip to aussie during my winter break to pay xin a little visit. however, when i asked her if she would sponsor my trip, she promptly looked at me and laughed. which means, i would need to save up for the trip. and even if i don't see xin, saving some kaching is a good habit which should be cultivated throughout life. that and i should stop making the owner of glassons and diva richer than he/she already probably is.

[keep working at to maintain and to better relationships]
i would be an outright liar if i was to say that i have perfect relationships with the people around me. in fact, im not even gonna try and deny the fact that i have neglected some people whom i shouldnt have this year. in the year 2007, i am going to attempt to maintain all relationships i already have, better the ones i have neglected and built new ones with the people i meet in university. be it with family, with my bffs, with vin, with friends (msia or nz) - i am going to try my very best and give it my all in my relationships with other individuals.

[don't procrastinate]
its weird that i should put that in my resolution list; considering the fact that i procrastinated posting this post up. hahahahahhaha

but i think thats about it. have a happy brand new spanking new year people! =)

delivery service charge?

three dollars! three freaking dollars!!!!
thats how much mackers is charging me for delivery..
pffft.. just wait till i get my drivers and i can drive there...
three freaking dollars! its injustice!
"how else would they get money for gas" said yi lin.
i dnt care! they are already making so goddamn much money from the overpriced undersized pieces of meat pattie slapped between two pieces of bread!
im officially annoyed.

on the other hand, im legal! yay!! my birthday was pretty much the usual.. had the girls over.. but this year we were missing jayne, lyn and dee :( oh wells..
anyway, thanks to you guys who showed up.. i absolutely loved the presents..
and thanks to you guys out there who remembered my birthday!