n-c-e-fucking-a

so the wait is finally over.
the results have been posted in snail mail.
and put up on the nzqa website.

it was disappointing.

i failed two out of four external english papers but got merits for the other two. it was weird that the ones i failed were the ones i thought i'd get merits for.. or maybe 4As wouldn't even have looked half as bad as 2Merits and 2Not Achieveds.

got two Merits and two Achieveds in Stats which were rather disappointing as well.. considering the fact that Stats was the only subject i was confident of doing well in. guess n0t. was hoping for all Merits.. somethin i know i was perfectly capable of achieving. so WHAT THE HELL WENT WRONG IN THE PAPER?!?!?!?! i checked the whole goddamn thing like 3 times before leaving the hall..

econs was a disappointment. the only Merit i had was in market failure. i know i can do so much better than that!! my performance throughout the year has that to prove for it. and its only even more disappointing simply because i studied my ass off for the econs paper.

calc. HAH. that was a laugh. i only did like half of the questions. the rest were just beyond me. however, i passed everything and only failed conics. haha. hahaha. hahahahaha. calculus provided my much needed entertainment for the day. HAH!

current mood - ahhh!! fucking stats and econs!! ahhh!!! fucking ncea!!! ahhh.. fuck the world!!!!

mood to be in an hour - disappointed as hell in self and resolve to once again study my fucking ass off in uni. i need to prove to the world that i am something so much more than this ncea results.

mood to be by the end of the day after movies and binge eating - mehhhhh.


now-its time to get uni and my hostel sorted. ah fuck.