lying is the most fun a girl can have (panic!)

friends don't do such things to friends. those who do - aren't friends.

all i asked was for your honesty. not very much more.

i hope you know this - that lying comes with a price tag. our friendship.

i loved you. once upon a very long time ago.

When It All Falls Apart

"When It All Falls Apart"
The Veronicas

I'm having the day from hell,
It wasn't all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No no

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up






-shitty days galore. can life get any worse?-

another one fallen

she tags no more.


is this how it is to be?


what she does; what she says; it hurts.

im 18 not 8

this post is meant for one person and one person only.

i swear to god i hope you realise that i'm EIGHTEEN not EIGHT.

i'm not stupid okay? i d0n't understand why you think that. i really don't. i may not be all that bright.. a lil slow even on some things.. but im DEFINITELY NOT AN IDIOT. so don't treat me like one.

in fact - you know what.. the world is not stupid either. u think u are playing the world.. thinking no one knows what your real intentions are but guess what.. we all know. we've all seen through your acts. YOU are the one who is being played right now and you don;t even have the slightest fucking idea. HAH!

my list of 6 weird things

truth be told, i'm only doing this list of 6 weird things because i need to blog about something but can't think of what.. and not because i was tagged. but hey - killing two birds with a stone.. why not right?

1) i want a m&ms dispenser so that i can put sour skittles in them. yes you read me right. sour skittles in a m&ms dispenser.

2) the only jay chou songs i like are the ones with strong chinese influence with traditional chinese instruments which give an olden chinese feel to the song. (if that jst made any sense)

3) like weiyi, the clothes in my closet are arranged in order. tops from bottoms. skirts from jeans. long from short. shirts from sleeveless. tanks from spaggetis. and all colour coordinated. heck. even my earrings are arranged. hoops from danglers from studs.

4) i used to only eat vegetables that look like vegetables. meaning vegetable that had stem and leaf and was green in colour; unlike xin who ate vegetable that didnt look like vegetable (read : colourful and had neither stem nor leaf) however, these days i'm eating most kinds of vegetables. except for the four big no-nos. cucumber, tomatoes, bean sprouts (tauge) and raw onions. to this list of four, i now hereby include celery as well.

5) before 2006, i never drank coffee. i only loved the aroma. and that was also only the aroma of malaysian coffee you get in the penang kopitiams especially if its it kopi-o-kao (thick black coffee with sugar). i remember just takin my mum's cup of coffee and inhaling the invigorating aroma of black coffee. the first time i had coffee in 2006, it was a double shot espresso. i proceeded to fall asleep not two hours afterwards. these days, i like my coffee black with one sugar with the occasional ice blended mocha. somehow, milk in coffee makes me sick.

6) i don't really believe in the whole marriage institution. the fact that two people are "truly, madly, deeply" so to speak in love does not mean and does not have to culminate in a marriage. two people who are in love need no paper proving that they are willing to share a bed and legally fuck each other without being charged with fornication. then again, fornication is kinda last millenium. but yes, i dnt really believe in the whole marriage institution. however, these days, im sorta kinda giving it the benefit of doubt. the weirder bit to this? i want to be a wedding planner.

there. 6 weird things about me. i'm not going to tag anyone to do this. cos i think its kinda stupid. however, if you have too much spare time on your hands and wish to do this.. leave a msg on my tagboard saying you have done it and i will go read it! [this isnt meaning to say that i dnt check your blog every single day.. because i do] :D

lost trust

its sad when the person you thought you could trust turns out to be the one who betrays you, knowingly and intentionally.

its sad like that.

life's sad like that.

piss off

not really liking the world at the moment.

fuck off world! just piss off and leave me alone!


this post excludes my bffs, my bf, my friends and my mates.