and so

it all boils down to this.
it has happened and thats that.
thinking about it, mulling over it, bitching about it, talking about it, whining about it is not going to change the fact that it has happened.
and thats the way of life.
accept it, forgive, understand that whatever happens happens for a reason, get over it, move on.
its what we all do.
we've been taught that time and tide waits for no one.
and if you want to be stagnant, caught in the webs of time and space thats for you to decide.
both of us were just the middle person caught in the range of fire.
its either hiding the truth or breaking a promise.
it was by fault of no one that it has happened.
and understand that it happens to everyone.
yes. everyone. you're not the only one.
and as much as you'd like to believe, hiding and ignoring is not going to help anything.
i've asked you about it and you chose to say nothing about it.
does that mean that you're at fault too?
you knew that if anything, the one thing i wanted was to have this settled.
the fact that i was silent doesn't mean i should be anything less to you.
and the fact that you've said stuff doesn't mean i regard you as anything less.
because the truth is, we all gossip, we all bitch and most of all we all have secrets.
accept that and understand that.
as she would have quoted gandhi, "be the change that you want to see in the world" or whatever it was that he said.
and by the way, whatever happened with me and her back then, that was our problem to deal with.
it wasn't because of anybody else that we were like that.
we were foolish, stupid and wilful.
she shouldn't have been implicated.
we've come to terms with that and we've gotten over it.
you should too.
and by doing what you did, you should know that you have opened up wounds which were left tucked away in the corner to heal.
you should have known better.
and by this, i know that i am probably not any more mature than you are and i'm not saying that i am but there would have been no other way to get it across to you.
both of us are having this little war over something that does not in any way even really concerns the both of us.
so go have your little war with yourself.
and when you are done, come talk to me.