Do you know how it feels...

...to want to laugh and cry all at the same time
...to feel alone even when you are surrounded by people
...like to be never good enough for everyone
...to be misunderstood
...like to have family want to kick you out of the house
...to not be appreciated
...to scream out loud yet not a squeak is heard
...like to want to die because living seems like such a chore
...like to not feel anything
...like to feel guilty because you don't live up to expectations
...like to disappoint
...to want to be accepted
...to have to pretend you give a damn about life, when really, you don't
...like to go to sleep having to find a reason to wake up in the morning
...to have no reason to wake up in the morning at all
...to have friends who don't understand
...to be in the wrong all the time, even if you're not
...like to not be able to defend yourself
...like to cry yourself to sleep every night
...like to desperately want to believe
...like to not feel alive