w.h.y

I DON'T GET IT. I JUST DON'T FUCKING GET IT. WHAT THE HELL IS IT THAT SHE HAS THAT I DON'T? IS IT THE FLAWLESS SKIN? THE PERFECT BODY? OR JUST THE FUCKING FACT THAT THE FUCKING FORBIDDEN FRUIT IS THE FUCKING SWEETEST? WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME? WHAT DID I FUCKING TO DO FUCKING DESERVE THIS? ONCE JUST WASN'T QUITE ENOUGH NOW WAS IT? YOU HAD TO COME DO THIS TO ME AS WELL.. AGAIN! WHAT THE FUCK?!?! JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY. AND YET EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME, I SOMEHOW FIND IT IN MYSELF TO FORGIVE YOU, BELIEVE IN YOU, AND THIS IS WHAT I FUCKING GET. I GIVE UP. I FUCKING GIVE UP. I CAN'T FEEL ANYMORE. IT'S LIKE I'M DEAD INSIDE AND NOTHING REALLY MATTERS ANYMORE. I WANT TO CRY. I WANT TO SCREAM. I WANT TO GET AWAY. I WANT TO FUCKING DIE.