i want to be happy

just realised that over the last two months i have posted a lot of "i want" posts.. very self centred and selfish i know.. but hm.

i want to be happy. i don't know why i've been so emo these few days. its worrying the people around me. and its annoying the hell out of me as well. but no worries.. i won't cut myself.. i'm vain and don't like scars and cutting leaves scars..

but yeah.. lately i have lost sight of a lot of things.. somewhere along the way, i have forgotten how its like to be really happy and to have lots of fun and not have to worry about anything.

i really want to be happy. but i don't know how anymore. everything seems to be wearing me down. but like wy said, i need to pull myself together. exams aren't that far away. i really need to concentrate. now is not the time to breakdown. but sadly, thats the point where i am now. at the point of breaking down.