trials abound

date : 3rd september 2005
place : my room
time : 1900 hours
weather outside : cool with no breeze and slight humidity
weather inside : very much cooler due to blasting air conditioning system.
current song playing on itunes : I'm With You by Avril Lavigne
current mood : frustrated and easily irritable

can't really remember how i spent last weekend. therefore, i am going to start off with monday.

monday was the first day back to school after our 2nd term break of a week. woke up somewhat late thinking, "shit. do i HAVE to go to school?" today was the day we were supposed to do some crossword puzzle for some language week or another which no one gave two hoots about resulting in lim pek screaming his heads off during assembly. it was also somebody's extremely mental idea of torturing the form fives as we sat in the blistering heat the whole day until the electricity came back on just as we were packing our bags and were heading home. talk about sick. i, for one, slept through three periods.

tuesday. i can't remember tuesday. no wait. i remember. today was the day some inti lady came and was boasting, though she had pointed out the fact to us that she DID NOT come with the intention of boasting about inti college, about how great inti was doing. how many scholarships that waived tuition fees altogether. how our seniors were doing. i also found out that my aunt was very popular. with the guys. in inti. as miss stephanie would say it. and yes, there were full stops. pr being her usual self was screeching on the mike going on and on about how great inti is, placing inti on a pedestal.

wednesday. malaysia's independence day. as well as my dad's birthday. twas a quiet affair this year at my residence as my dad wanted no celebrations at all. had tuition at mrs e's where i got to see daniel's recently rebonded hair which he claimed to be natural.

thursday. i don't remember thursday.

friday. twas the prefect party. wasn't all that great or fancy but who are we to complain. at least we GOT a party. no cream puffs though. however, we seniors did get a little something. we got this handphone pouch which was in the shape of clothes. as well as this other key chain like thing. went for the second bm class today instead thinking that the party would end somewhat late. sat behind this guy who was giggling like a girl. couldn't help but burst out laughing each time he giggled.

today. nothing much happened. went to the doc's this morning. watched in fascination as she drew out my blood. went for tuition afterwards.

date : 3rd september 2005
place : my room
time : 1930 hours
weather outside : of higher humidity as compared to humidity level at 1900 hours
weather inside : cool due to blasting air conditioning system.
current song playing on itunes : hanging by a moment - lifehouse
current mood : dazed

then, i hated to hate.
then, i loved to love.
you came into my life.
you taught me how to hate.
you taught me how to love.
now, i hate to love.
now, i love to hate.
now, i love myself for having hated you.
now, i hate myself for having loved you.
will i ever learn how to love again?
will i ever learn not to hate again?
you played with my heart.
you messed with my mind.
and now, all that is left,
is one confused mind.
one broken heart.
one me.

+ cassie over and out +